The Munchies are a Very Real Thing

 There's this reality show I like to watch about people who are addicted to eating and gain so much weight that it affects their quality of life, and there's a doctor that'll give them weight loss surgery.  Often they'll say that eating makes them feel good, gives them a pleasure they can't find elsewhere.  Just like every other addiction.

Pot's been known to give a person a little something called 'The Munchies".  As I understand it, the munchies are where you're not really hungry, but you just want something.  Something crunchy.  Or sweet.  Or chewy, or salty.  Your mouth is craving something.  For me it craves something different every time, but it's almost always brought on by having smoked up.

In one particular instance what I found in the pantry to fill the void was Goldfish Crackers.  I don't usually eat them, we buy them for the hubby to put in his tomato soup.  At first I wasn't going to grab the bag as it was the last one and I would've left an orphan can of soup.  But the craving was too strong, I couldn't resist.  Grabbed the bag, ripped it open, plunked down on the couch and dove in.

The first cracker that hit my mouth could very well have been the most delicious morsel of food I'd ever put in my mouth.  The next one even more delicious than the first.  How was this even possible??  I then found myself with a mouthful of goldfish, with a serious case of dry mouth, yet still the most amazing thing I'd ever eaten!

These Goldfish crackers were phenomenal and suddenly I fully and completely understood the people on the show who can't stop eating.  It all makes sense now!  Didn't matter how dry my mouth was, how full my stomach was, I could not stop eating those crackers and I didn't stop until the bag was empty.  The disappointment that came with realizing the bag was empty!  They're gone?  They can't be gone!  I didn't enjoy that last bite as well as I should have!  I should have savoured it more!  I was out of Goldfish crackers, I couldn't drive to get more, and there was nothing else that would compare.

I still get the munchies and I've learned to temper my cravings, although sometimes I still give in to the cravings.  I had never before experienced such a euphoric feeling from eating, followed by such intense disappointment.  I have since eaten Goldfish crackers, and have never found another bag as delicious as that one.

I haven't been able to recreate that Goldfish experience so I have accepted that this experience was a special one, and I will savour the memories as best I can.

Meantime I'll keep trying.